A woman who tried to kill her newborn baby and husband by driving their car into a wall has told how psychosis after child birth nearly destroyed their lives.
Laura, 31, almost killed herself, her husband Dan, and daughter Olivia after intrusive thoughts and hallucinations took over.
The office administrator, from Chesterfield, Derbyshire, had never experienced mental health issues before being diagnosed with postpartum psychosis 14 days after Olivia was born on June 13 last year - which ultimately led her to being sectioned.
Laura reveals all about her illness in a new Channel 4 documentary - Losing It: Our Mental Health Emergency - which follows Nottingham NHS Trust as they cope with the demand of treatment for mental health.
She experienced a long period of no sleep following Olivia's birth, struggled to breastfeed, and also had a blood clot in her leg, followed by suspected sepsis.
Ahead of the show, Laura explained to PA news agency: "There wasn't a lot of sleep going on.
"It got to the point where I became manic and I didn't want to sleep.
"I started with hallucinations or bad dreams, I'm not sure what it was."
She added: "The first hallucination I had was Olivia being molested and thrown about. I had three of those dreams and it got to the point where I didn't want to go to bed.
"The lack of sleep got a lot worse and, because Dan was sleeping, I was resenting him because he could fall asleep."
Laura said as time went on, she became aggressive towards her partner.
In the two days running up to the shocking incident, Laura said she had stayed up for 40 hours manically cleaning.
On the Sunday, Dan, 29, a shift supervisor at a warehouse, was driving the family to a friend's house for lunch when Laura tried to kill her family.
Laura said: "Dan was driving but in my head he was blinking for longer periods than normal as if he was about to fall asleep, so I asked him to pull over and said I would drive.
"I got in the driver's seat and cried and explained to him that I was having hallucinations.
"I was really upset and, because he didn't comfort me, it made me mad and angry and I asked him if I could end it.
"In a split second I just set off in the car. It felt like somebody was trying to take one of us and I just wanted us to be together, so logically the only way to be together was to end it.
"I was going faster and faster and saw a wall. Dan was screaming 'Please stop, please stop, Olivia needs a mum and a future, please stop'.
"In the end, he pressed the stop/start button which slowed down the car really quickly.
"Dan took Olivia out of the car and then I set off again, driving on my own and thought 'If I die, then I can wait for them'.
"But then I heard a voice in my head saying 'What if it's not real? What if you just need sleep?"'
Laura drove back to Dan crying and apologising, who managed to get her to A&E.
She was taken to Nottinghamshire Healthcare Trust where she spent six weeks having treatment.
Laura continued: "I still feel guilty, that's not gone away, even though it wasn't me, it could have ended so differently. I owe my life to the unit.
"It's made me and Dan stronger, we've always been strong but it's made us unbreakable. To go through that and then come out the other side is unbelievable.
"I'm quite strong-willed but it stripped me, it tipped all of my life upside down. I was like a shell of my former self."Losing It: Our Mental Health Emergency airs on Channel 4 on Tuesday at 10pm.
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