X Factor star Janet Devlin has bravely shared on her struggle with alcohol and how it led to her trying to take her own life.
The Northern Irish singer-songwriter, 25, who was only 16-years-old when she appeared on the ITV talent show says she had a problem with booze from the age of 18 after suffering with fame and being shy.
And that after a number of failed suicide attempts - which Janet says were unplanned - she knew she was in a dark space.
The singer admitted that she used alcohol for a boost in social situations but she then began drinking before work and waking up "with a gin bottle under her pillow".
During an appearance on Tuesday's Loose Women, the I Lied to You musician shared over webcam with the panel about her journey to sobriety.
Janet told how after the X Factor she moved to Sheffield on her own and that she found it lonely.
She admitted: "When I was in social situations I turned to alcohol for a boost."
The talented star later added: I started to have a problem by 18."
When asked what made her realise she had to change Janet then shared that it was "failed suicide attempts."
She continued: "I don’t know in particular the exact moment when it got dark I pretty much woke up with a bottle of gin under my pillow and I had to drink before work."
Jane Moore then asked Janet to elaborate on if her family knew about her suicide attempts.
Janet said: "My family didn't know at the time and most of them were never planned, it would happen whenever I had too much to drink and access to sleeping medication that I would mix the two together.
"My poor mum was always just waiting on that phone call to find out when I finally was gone.
"I love her to pieces and I'm so glad every day that I'm not causing her the same pain.
The singer, who is now in recovery, then explained how she got onto the road to sobriety as she said: "It wasn’t really my choice, I tried number of times to go sober.
"My mum came over after I went missing for three days and she took to me a clinic but they were full but someone gave me a card for AA and I went to a meeting and it changed my life."
Janet is realising an autobiography in June alongside an album that is set to give an insight to her ten-years in the limelight.