GLOW, Sam (Marc Maron) is a real between Ruth. Rethink the battle (Alison Brie) and Debbie (Betty Gilpin). What begins with a hair-pulling brawl and uncertain blow turns into a fully-produced kitsch professional match with perfect make-up, shimmering outfits, and a packed audience. At that moment Sam saw the possibility ofGLOW, and I saw myself. Five years later, I can thank this underrated gem for helping me rethink what my body is.
My best friend has never slept with her husband (I'm not married), but I've always been most associated with Betty Gilpin's Debbie. At some level, I just understood her. Maybe it was because I respected her. This fallen dreamer tasted her ever-desired fame and built her own future, rather than drowning in her defeat. Maybe it's because Gilpin's naturally winding bodyresembles my own. This is the body that I refused to stick thinly ideally even if I ate a little. Maybe it's because Debbie has a killer look and a brutal one-liner.
But the farther away from the series, the more I love Debbie's flexibility. Most characters have a fairly static relationship with the body, but Debbie ’s are everywhere. What does Debbie's body mean for her shift, based on her career, her goals, and even her mood. What I've been stuck with since I first pushed play is that ever-changing relationship.
When I first met Debbie, she was a woman I already knew was. Her mother and her friends carved her body using jazzercise instead of aerobics class, but Debbie was taught to look at her body unknowingly, so Debbie was her I realized how to look at my body. Exercise was a means to maintain the trim. The fact that it released endorphins and gave her a few hours of innocent time from childcare was the icing of the cake she would never eat because the cake contained calories. In these first few episodes, Debbie's physical goals focus on maintenance and how others see her when she's constantly striving to stay on TV. It is expanding.
In the middle of Season 1, it will change soon. When Debbie goes to her first wrestling match with "Debbie does something", the big picture of her body changes. Her hesitation, which she was accustomed to throwing herself on the rope, disappears. Her hold looks safer. Hell, even the screams in her ring feel more throat. Instead of working hard as the camera is ready, she lifts, sweats, and moans in an apparently non-sexy way. For Debbie, much of theGLOWrevolves around accepting her own physical strength, rather than simply building it up to soothe a man's gaze.
No matter how you cut it, it's a powerful message. But Debbie has another body change that is often overlooked. In Season 3, "Desert Pollen," women take dance classes with a group of Las Vegas showgirls. Most of the episodes revolve around Cherry (Sidernoel), who recognizes that a stunt and action work career can lead to a life full of constant disappointment. But Debbie also has a revelation about her body. Once she can't keep up with the class.
Debbie feels dissatisfied with herself and gets on the train on the stairs that hit her casino head ride. Sandy Devereaux St. Clair (Geena Davis). The conversation is the first time Debbie considers a career path that doesn't depend on her appearance. As far as we know, she is the first to see her body as a mere body, not an extension of her art. Later in the same episode, she eats a burger with Ruth and just throws it alone. Debbie's food-based demon is still lurking, and if the show was allowed to continue, we would probably have seen more of her potential eating disorders. But for a moment she allowed herself to be just a person, and she just enjoyed her body. That normal moment felt as powerful as Debbie embraced her strength.
I know it's a bit ridiculous to keep Debbie Eagan as a body positivity role model. Gilpin is a Hollywood star and has always seen the standard of existence that the average person cannot achieve. But Debbie was the first to claim that someone, even someone fictitious, was as valuable as my body was strong, and I believed in them. Watching Debbie gradually celebrate her power, I got permission to marvel at my power. Before GLOW, I was convinced that I wasn't well-tuned to realize my fitness dream. Riding a five-mile bike is now part of my daily life, and weekends are devoted to intense crew practice. My body is changing, and it's so cool to see it change.
And when my body inevitably changes again, I know Debbie is there for me. Whether figurative or not, it's time to face your dance class and realize that you can't keep up and don't want to do it. Debbie told me that was fine. It's always bitter about canceling herin GLOW, but I never stop loving it the way it taught me to love my body.