I get her letters, maybe once a month.
They are troubling affairs, scratched out in pencil on lined paper.
A gumbo of plots and conspiracies jammed into a couple hundred words.
She calls me the ‘Bureau of Accuracy.’
Michelle Erstikaitis has been best known over the years as a fangirl of serial killer Paul Bernardo.
She even penned love letters to him back in the day.
Bernardo, of course, infamously murdered three southern Ontario schoolgirls in the early 1990s. A bonafide monster.
Once, on the phone, she denied she was the killer’s champion, threatened to sue and continued sending me letters.
Three days after a judge declared her a dangerous offender, I received another letter from the 40-year-old diagnosed psychopath. Her sentence is now indeterminate.
She was deemed the worst of the worst for stabbing a security guard at the U.S. Consulate on University Ave. In 2011, she shanked her boyfriend earning her first dangerous offender tag.
“Despite her endless admiration for serial killers and other repulsive or notorious offenders, there’s no evidence that any of them have ever had any communication with her or any interest in her whatsoever,” wrote Justice Alfred O’Marra.
The judge basically decided Erstikaitis was a danger to public safety and there was simply no end in sight.
“She does not understand that she must change, not the world around her,” wrote psychiatrist Dr. Lisa Ramshaw.
Festooned with musical notes, the back of the envelope on her latest missive channels the Mafia: “Revenge is a dish best served cold.”
For good measure, she quotes rocker Marilyn Manson: “When I’m God, everyone dies.”
Inside are the ramblings of a troubled mind.
She complains she didn’t see fellow columnist Michele Mandel or myself at her recent court appearances
“This is very unfortunate because you both now owe me $50 billion dollars in a libel lawsuit,” she writes, adding that she has given allegiance to the last Czar of Russia, Nicholas II.
“I am a violent psychopath with a devout military fascination going back to my adolescence when I joined army cadets in London.”
But she adds that her “choice of ‘victim’ is definitely unusual. An American Consular security guard, Mr. James Miller.”
Erstikaitis claims the military aspect is why media shied away from her latest courtroom drama (The Toronto Sun covered the story).
Elsewhere in her dispatch from the fringe, she mentions studying to be a CIA operative.
Julian Assange, Oklahoma City Bomber Timothy McVeigh, Councillor Paula Fletcher, and the Columbine killers also make cameos in the letter.
Another woman I interviewed a decade ago was also enamoured of serial killers, violence and life’s dark alleys.
Her crew were denizens of California’s death row at San Quentin, like Richard “The Night Stalker” Ramirez and child killer Richard Allen Davis, among others.
She’d write them sexually-charged letters, with a few raunchy photos thrown in for good measure. Maybe they’d write back.
Then she grew up. She was 21 when she came to the conclusion that these men were vile.
Erstikaitis is a deeply troubled woman. Her mind is unhinged. Reality appears to be fleeting.
Violence and vengeance permeate her thoughts.
Erstikaitis has again hit the big time: A dangerous offender with a dangerous and troubled mind.
And I’m not sure the former Bernardo fangirl will ever again see the light of day.
Then again, knowing the Canadian justice system, some bureaucrat somewhere is certain to step up to the plate for her.